Let me give fill you in a bit. Cain and I were talking about going to my junior prom together. Instead of thinking "Oh, this is definatly not gonna happen'" I thought, "Wow! This is absolutly perfect! Nothing could be better." Well what a dumbass move! He started doing that thing were he stops talking to me for absolutely no reason. Then, I noticed he actually was purposely ignoring me.
I finally got him to talk to me today. I texted him and asked if we could talk about prom (for about the millionth time now). He said he couldn't, cause of his boyfriend. That's when it all made sense to me. Every single time he gets a boyfriend, he stops talking to me. Hah, isn't he a great friend. I learned today that he obviously doesn't care about me. He proved to me that I am NOTHING to him. Ever since we met, it was like this. When I though he cared SO much, he really didn't. He even acted like it, recently too.
He says he doesn't care, but I dont think I believe that honestly. But from his word, he doesn't/
Cain was suppose to be different. He was the one person that I had still talked to from my past, and that was actually a pretty decent friend. Why? Why the hell did I think he would be different? Nobody else has been that I talked to. Maybe that's cause I thought he was seriously special. He is someone I can't go without thinking about. No matter what I'm doing or who's around me. He was there in the back of my mind. Always.
I'm so pissed. I'm not fighting to keep our friendship anymore. I should've stopped the first time he quit putting effort into it. Giving me pathetic excuses that he is too busy. Who isn't?
Cain H.....I was better off not knowing that name. Sad thing is, I'd kill for one day with you still.
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